You know that silence is loud when all you hear is your heart,
And I wanted so badly
Just to be a part of something strong and true,
But I got scared and left it all behind.

I can't shake this wretched feeling off when it's 1:31am and hence, can't get to sleep. Study session yesterday afternoon was fine, given the fact that I completed 2 topics, in 6 hours. Haha, like wth, definitely Interphase. It's a Bio term but I'll cut the explanation cos' the writings on my notes look like nothing but bull to me at this hour.

Took the whimsical drawings off and settled on this down-to-earth(enough?) template though I have a few more pending modifications but damn, that's of least importance right now. It's nearing the end of August and I feel some part of myself coming back, though I can't exactly put a finger to what it really symbolizes or whether it will actually even materialize. My archives never fail to be an interesting read especially when through them I always find out again that I'm seldom a blind eye to things I know are about to happen. Quite amusing :s

Yeah, go ahead and rebutt me. Look yourself in the mirror and question what makes you more human than the day before.

She's impossible and there's nothing to love.

So I'm sitting wallowing in perhaps self-pity and emotional abuse derived from all that repeated paranoia, after being given a new meaning to our familiar catchphrase of "Once bitten, Twice Shy", except that on this occasion the probability of encountering the need to shun away is not far from breaking point.

I see ideas springing up from all corners of my surroundings. Was at M's(Never knew she had a Dasch too) and for a moment there, I thought I caught myself missing That life. I was wild, too free spirited, I was happy, now I'm content but kilometres away from satisfaction. Lions strip flesh off their prey but how often does one not gnaw on the bones? Deers can run and hide but the weak ones die anyway.

No brownie points for being frank.

1)School bloody sucks.
2)I can make a fool out of myself but still make my friends laugh With me.
3)A leopard never changes its spots.
4)Revenge is almost always sweet.
6)I hate the fact that you are so intriguing.

While you're struggling to stay alive with me for the next 2 months I'll find ways to tell you everything about how it feels like to die every night.

Feed the flesh but the soul will rot.

No video today, only Whizki Baby and his dream(s) :>

Buddy knows I like it when people dedicate songs to me(by dropping it's Youtube link, penning me the lyrics or letting me listen through the ipod/mp3), whether the lyrics are meant for me or not, a move like this sometimes helps me feel better. Thank you Buddy for Metallica :)

Do you know too? He knew cos he used to be like my personal J.

It's thundering it's thunderinggggggggg!:( It's 1:07 and I'm still up!

I used to be love drunk, but now I’m hung over,
I’ll love you forever, forever is over,
We used to kiss all night, now it’s just a bar fight,
So don’t call me crying, say hello to goodbye,
Cause just one sip would make me sick,
I used to be love drunk, but now I’m hung over,
I’ll love you forever, but now it’s over.

School has been draining, and will continue to be till I leave the place. With mock papers and essays thrown our way, there's barely any room to kick off your shoes, then sit back and relax. It's that time of the year again when the intensity of workload is mounting, but this time perhaps, Tenfold and hence, extremely unbearable.

Like I know everything, I don't know anything
I wanted you to see that I got nothing.

I'll sit back and I'll watch the show,
I'll lay awake and I'll watch the stars as they collide.

Don't treat me like I'm playing a game
Cause' baby I don't want to lose,
Baby I don't want to risk it all for you.

My eyes they do see,
I don't breathe the way I used to
My lips they don't sing,
I won't be the way I was, on that night.

TTR with you.