L.

2009-10-29T19:07:00.003+08:00

When you're at the end of the road,
And you lost all sense of control,
And your thoughts have taken their toll,
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul,

Your faith walks on broken glass and the hangover doesn't pass,
Nothing's ever built to last, you're in ruins.

When it's time to live and let die,
& you can't get another try,
Something inside this heart has died ...

2009-09-29T20:38:00.005+08:00

It's still your voice in my head & I hope it's still in your heart.

Truth is, I am missing you terribly but I bite back my tongue because I don't want to struggle with how I feel everytime I see you. No, it's not pride, but I wish you were here to get through my exams with me over the next 2 months. There's so much I can say but every night I go to sleep wishing so much to hopefully, see you the next morning and know that you'd be here to stay.

It is only after a fall that I am strongest, but when I think back upon what happened last year at this very period of time, surely I won't let history repeat itself?
I don't tread through the same path I tripped along twice, but now is an exception. I'm wearing better shoes, trying to be more careful , but lately I just don't feel like watching where I'm walking.

Here's a big apology to my regulars, including Boss(Haha I know you come here sometimes) for my extremely lack-of-life entries. Not in an emo state but more of wanting to transit into Medidation mode. Hiatus here I come... :(

41 more days.

2009-09-25T23:49:00.001+08:00

still am missing you

2009-09-16T20:19:00.002+08:00

I guess we would have to walk a mile
in each other's shoe, at least,
What size you wear? I wear tens,
Let's see if you can fit your feet.

With the exception of GP, it's 2 down and 6 more papers to go. Let's not talk about Math cos my chances of passing are once again, Anorexic. Yes... that's how slim the odds are. My only moment of glory came only after about 15minutes when I managed to solve a 6mark Maclaurin's question, though whether I'll get awarded full credit for it or not is Another issue altogether. Biology today and I kinda had to rush through, But this means I didn't spend much time looking out the window, watching birds, or imagining little stick people having fun on the playgrounds of diagrams in the paper. And this I'm glad to say, indicates that I squeezed out More than usual to fill the blanks, so I hope all that frustrating correction taping and waiting for the stinky white puddles to dry in order to write down a Slightly more perfect answer will be worth it. I think if I hit a 30 something out of 100, it'll suffice in putting a grin on my face cos my highest was only like, 20 plus? Sometimes it's amusing when I wonder how I made it to JC. There're still Papers 1&3 to conquer so I can probably put more effort into studying them and maybe, Just Maybe, Pass Biology this time? :>

Time to study for Chemistry Paper 3! Though I'm incredibly tired the only thing in my mind now is ...................................... You don't know, do you?
I miss my friends alot :(

2009-09-13T18:22:00.003+08:00

A week has flown by swiftly and my academic progress still shows Maximum peaks of Minumum effort put into studying. How? I'v been thinking too much about somebody and trips down Memory Lane which I now fight quadruply hard to evade(of course, to no avail) are wreaking havoc and sucking this damn life out of me!!>:( It's out to make me look like some lovelorn fool I know, but there's really no way I can get around this bend.

I think I'm gonna bloody screw up my A'Lvls.

Maybe I Really do have a problem with committment, either that or my desperation for consistency clings on like baby chimpanzees yet to wean off their mothers. Once I settle on a feeling, the exigency for it stick to me like a loyal canine is already played out in my cards. I still want a time machine, but earlier today I wanted Out.

2009-09-09T21:49:00.004+08:00

They make me feel like I'll never find someone who'd feel as passionately as you did towards me. They tug at my heartstrings and still make me cry, how so?
cos' Your ears, when they listen to my voice, follow me.
Your eyes when they take me in, hold me.
Your voice, when it comforts me, feels me.
Your heart, when it sees me at my worst, loves me.
I miss you so, so very much.
I really wish you are back here with me.

2009-09-08T01:20:00.001+08:00

This September bleedout is killin' me. Hopes of attempting to turn in earlier to sleep these cramps away are dashed because the purpose of doing so is defeated when the same pain is keeping me wide awake. I really detest this bloody hassle of a period(pun greatly intended).

If things are the way I assume they are, my heart should rightfully and probably go out to you, given how I live with my warped perceptions that infidelity without a doubt, smacks hard across human nature. But as far as this goes, the walls have ears while people talk and I scorn the proclamations of passion of various forms hurled in specific directions you artfully pick out. If Scorpios are vengeful by nature I must be a Leo with pincers because I Simply Hate Everything you've made me become, as well as the only other factor which threw itself into the sea and allowed to be swept along with the current.

Sunday & Saturday
On a lighter note, I finally got my haircut. Still a mess, but less of a disaster. I hope I'll be able to thrive on a newly acquired status of More than friends taken up another notch.

Fatigue can one day drive the sanest to scaling the tallest mountains. WHY The Hell am I still feeling this way???? My brain is bursting with food for thought, so full.

2009-09-04T11:58:00.004+08:00

I'll see if it holds,
At some point, the night will speak for itself,
This is for the whole world to see as I race with time.

It's problematic when you're stuck with someone with issues and it's no better off when she has the greatest addiction of texting 6pages long essays like bullets rattling of a machine gun. It pleases her so much to annoy and upset you till you shout and resort to forces no gentleman should, and would slap you in the face a trillion times with the past she simply adores bringing up just to hear more shouts(maybe this time into a pillow) accompanied with tiffs and the endless tirade of complaints over the phone, but she doesn't care cos she knows there's no way to turn down a Boy with lightsticks and so much more.

This is 13140000seconds, 525600minutes, 8760hours, 365days, 1 year for you regardless of whether we've been countries apart, quarrelling or laughing at each other, sleeping or awake, dreaming or quarrelling, whether You Like it Or Not. I hope you Enjoyed it, Breathed it and Loved it with Every bit of your life as much as I did, Mr S♥
You are so damn horrible & I still like to fight with you.

2009-09-01T02:01:00.001+08:00

Flight of the Bumblebee,

If I hit rewind, here's how the tape rolls:
Leaves house hoping to be spared a single drop of perspiration. Ensures I'm smelling nice. Wakes up still lethargic, annoyed with unruly hair. Hits the sack with thoughts wreaking havoc, water intake hitting only 70% of target requirement(Talk about the humdrum of life when I'm actually goal setting for something like this). 2Hour insomnia. A 5minute urge to watch the L Word. Oxidized apples. A tiff. A phonecall. A disagreement. A shower that failed to satiate. More carrots and potatoes. $16.10 off my card since West still hasn't hooked up with East. A small pep-talk in hopes of further beefing up as well as to mock and taunt my insecurities. A Hot&Spicy $3.00 bag. Carrots and potatoes. Your soft hair. A warm nap. A want and a wall in between. A cool(mild, or so it reads)shower. Cat. Cat. 9 stops. Helped a fellow citizen(Moron is his middle name) in need. Audiohouse,$1289/$1298? A lesson on independence. 9stops. 10% discounts off lunch. 27. 161. Sleep-inducing Geography lecture in a theatre reeking of perspiration(yeah I fell asleep till my face was threatened to be boxed). Ran my lungs out, till a stitch made itself comfortable in my right. Small walks/talks with the Best Best. An 80% pathetic Teacher's Day celebration(Happy Teacher's Day, but this IS the 5th student council for you). Fatty Pork pointed out early at 07:47am. $4.80 Cabfare. Another weary train journey. Woke up grouchy cos' I was kicked in the ass.

Didn't expect the usual Mundane Monday would wind up with me having so much to type. Of course, what I didn't include was the Highlight of the Day:
Champion at his best.

I can predict my days, yet they are capricious with a mind of their own. They work hand in hand with my erratic moods cos there's seldom anything I see eye to eye with. Heart to heart talks are slowly becoming my cup of tea, Not. Anymore, at least.

Fall in our garden economy.

2009-08-30T01:31:00.009+08:00

You know that silence is loud when all you hear is your heart,
And I wanted so badly
Just to be a part of something strong and true,
But I got scared and left it all behind.

I can't shake this wretched feeling off when it's 1:31am and hence, can't get to sleep. Study session yesterday afternoon was fine, given the fact that I completed 2 topics, in 6 hours. Haha, like wth, definitely Interphase. It's a Bio term but I'll cut the explanation cos' the writings on my notes look like nothing but bull to me at this hour.

Took the whimsical drawings off and settled on this down-to-earth(enough?) template though I have a few more pending modifications but damn, that's of least importance right now. It's nearing the end of August and I feel some part of myself coming back, though I can't exactly put a finger to what it really symbolizes or whether it will actually even materialize. My archives never fail to be an interesting read especially when through them I always find out again that I'm seldom a blind eye to things I know are about to happen. Quite amusing :s

Yeah, go ahead and rebutt me. Look yourself in the mirror and question what makes you more human than the day before.

2009-08-24T22:37:00.003+08:00

She's impossible and there's nothing to love.

So I'm sitting wallowing in perhaps self-pity and emotional abuse derived from all that repeated paranoia, after being given a new meaning to our familiar catchphrase of "Once bitten, Twice Shy", except that on this occasion the probability of encountering the need to shun away is not far from breaking point.

I see ideas springing up from all corners of my surroundings. Was at M's(Never knew she had a Dasch too) and for a moment there, I thought I caught myself missing That life. I was wild, too free spirited, I was happy, now I'm content but kilometres away from satisfaction. Lions strip flesh off their prey but how often does one not gnaw on the bones? Deers can run and hide but the weak ones die anyway.

No brownie points for being frank.

1)School bloody sucks.
2)I can make a fool out of myself but still make my friends laugh With me.
3)A leopard never changes its spots.
4)Revenge is almost always sweet.
6)I hate the fact that you are so intriguing.

While you're struggling to stay alive with me for the next 2 months I'll find ways to tell you everything about how it feels like to die every night.

Feed the flesh but the soul will rot.

2009-08-23T00:46:00.005+08:00

No video today, only Whizki Baby and his dream(s) :>

Buddy knows I like it when people dedicate songs to me(by dropping it's Youtube link, penning me the lyrics or letting me listen through the ipod/mp3), whether the lyrics are meant for me or not, a move like this sometimes helps me feel better. Thank you Buddy for Metallica :)

Do you know too? He knew cos he used to be like my personal J.

It's thundering it's thunderinggggggggg!:( It's 1:07 and I'm still up!

2009-08-18T21:43:00.002+08:00

I used to be love drunk, but now I’m hung over,
I’ll love you forever, forever is over,
We used to kiss all night, now it’s just a bar fight,
So don’t call me crying, say hello to goodbye,
Cause just one sip would make me sick,
I used to be love drunk, but now I’m hung over,
I’ll love you forever, but now it’s over.

School has been draining, and will continue to be till I leave the place. With mock papers and essays thrown our way, there's barely any room to kick off your shoes, then sit back and relax. It's that time of the year again when the intensity of workload is mounting, but this time perhaps, Tenfold and hence, extremely unbearable.

2009-08-05T22:07:00.004+08:00

Like I know everything, I don't know anything
I wanted you to see that I got nothing.

I'll sit back and I'll watch the show,
I'll lay awake and I'll watch the stars as they collide.

Don't treat me like I'm playing a game
Cause' baby I don't want to lose,
Baby I don't want to risk it all for you.

My eyes they do see,
I don't breathe the way I used to
My lips they don't sing,
I won't be the way I was, on that night.

TTR with you.

2009-06-21T10:16:00.002+08:00

是我想太多　你總這樣說　
但你卻沒有　真的心疼我
是我想太多　我也這樣說　
這是唯一能　安慰我的理由

或許錯在我太晚我才懂　愛了你太多

2009-06-20T01:22:00.000+08:00

Forgive my broken promise that you'll never see me cry,
And everything, it will surely change, even if I tell you I won't go away today.

Gee. I really have no idea what has gotten into me lately. I miss school, probably because that's the only way I get to see my friends on a daily basis, minus the weekends of course. But the mere thought of what's greeting me upon the arrival of Term3 is a Huge turnoff. I don't know why this month has been so rough, I don't know why there are moments I feel so alone. I feel like my heart is settling, yet at the same time, weightless.

My babyboy.

I really want to do well cos I want to stay in Singapore. I want you to do well, I want all my friends to excel. I remember Yogi Bear askin' me once if I regret staying on in IJ after giving in to persuasions from him and DD cos' not long after I made the decision to do so, the entire clique more or less drifted. At time I do wonder if i'll be doing alot better now if I had remained in St.A but the friendships I'v built to this very day overwhelms everything.

I miss Crescent. Is that why everybody always go on about how their Secondary school days are the most memorable out of their entire academic pathway? Yes, it packs an extra punch for me cos I'v been in that building down 357 Tanglin Road for not just 4, but 5 years.

Life, with the wonderful family and friends it has bestowed upon me, I won't deny, is undoubtedly treating me well.It's another of those nights whereby my thoughts are running berserk but tell me you 2, which Crescent girl doesn't reminisce like how we do? There're so many things within our reach, in our control, but what exactly propels us into working towards them? I think alot, I know. too much, even. But that's only cos' I care, I want, I feel, and Love too much.

So what happens when I don't?

2009-06-18T22:59:00.002+08:00

Thank you You you you You and especially You:)
School's starting and Prelim1 is already breathing down my neck(actually, since the holidays started). I can't stand the chills but hey then again, I'm wrapped up snugly in my lack of motivation to study, which really, really sucks big time. I'm pretty much damn occupied with alot of other things and bits of my heart are flying here and there anxious t meet/catch up with people but Heyho then again, bring me back to June18th(already???), and that's like less than 2 weeks more to the exams.

I need better skin, better hair, a better heart. hahaha, oh dear. Goodnight everyone:)

2009-06-11T14:01:00.001+08:00

I probably don't have the courage to get this across via text, much less through the phone. When you wanted it so badly I had issues with thinkin' I could let go, only to realise it couldn't be done. My feelings thrive on consistency, and that coming from you helped alot. But Time still took it's toll, cos just as I thought I could do this with you, things had to get in the way. I too, probably work very much on timing. I'v been waiting but as I do so, I find myself slowly returning what you had for me, as well as the remaining you're giving me.

The words you spoke, the list you wrote, are you working as hard as before towards them?

What are we, What sets us apart from others? How much meaning is there in this?
I want to start over, but I don't know how much you still want this.
I want to start over, but this just means I'm back to Square One.

I'm relying on the chance that you probably don't visit this place.

Haha, I think the reason why I like this song so much is because it'd be so Wonderful if someone were to dedicate it to me. Hahaha, it's so freakin' hot!!! The weather, I mean.

2009-06-09T22:21:00.001+08:00

Brian McFadden & Delta Goodrem - Almost Here

imy

2009-06-03T11:47:00.003+08:00

help me.

2009-06-02T10:08:00.002+08:00

I'll leave my window open,
Cos' I'm too tired at night to call your name
Just know that I'm right here hoping
That you'll come in with the rain.

I could stand up and sing you a song
But I don't wanna have to go that far,
And I, I'v got you down
I know you by heart,
And you don't even know where I start.

~(@)(@)(@)

2009-05-02T09:38:00.003+08:00

How can it be you're askin' me to feel the things you never show?

2009-03-28T22:36:00.000+08:00

Today I laughed 200m, and hope to be stronger with each passing day,

2009-01-17T09:03:00.004+08:00

We should have had the sun, Could've been inside,
Instead we're over here.

A thousand times I'v seen you standing
Gravity like a lunar landing
Make me want to run till I find you,
I shut the world away from here
Drift to you You're all I hear
Everything we know fades to black,

Half the time the world is ending
Truth is I am done pretending

I never thought that I had anymore to give
Pushing me so far Here I am without you,
Drink to all that we have lost
Mistakes we have made
Everything will change,
~~But love remains the same.~~

A week of school feels like a month. Do some simple math calculations, and viola, I have more than 10 months in a school I can't wait to leave.

2009-01-04T21:07:00.002+08:00

Happy 2009!

Welcome home, little mischief :) It's gonna take awhile before we get you to control your calls of nature, the need to bite through the teething stage but we'll love you all the same.

Meanwhile ...... another week to go, drats.

2008-12-23T21:46:00.004+08:00

Winning a battle, Losing the war.

S1 Clique outing involved lunch and a floaty walk down Orchard Road, accompanied with Mad's constant teasing of my (lack of)height, Emil's giggling, Sya's dreamy voice and Far's chuckles stemming from her amazement and doubt upon hearing I play basketball. That aside, nothing has changed. Our meet-up to reminisce, joke about how bullying(eventually, chasing away)the Emath relief and infuriating the Amath teacher felt like home, just as much as Crescent will always be.

Clockwise from left: Syafeeqah, Me, Madeleine , Ain, Farhana, Emil :)
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Saturday evening was spent at Aston's for Mr Kuek's birthday. Dinner was superb, the very very vital essence which was to catch up was captured. Along with Selwyn, it just felt good having their nonsense surrounding me.
Happy 17th Alvin, my favourite chipmunk!:) Japan again, in the future? Our parents could arrange ;)

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Over to Timo's house on Friday for our yearly Pri school gathering. Victor totally wow-ed us with his accurate recital of the entire register, 1 to 38, Still my favourite boy! That aside, having almost the whole Catching group present pretty much fills up for all the time we've lost together as screaming 11/12 year olds in Nanyang.

Please Ocean Cloud, Let there be no storm on the crossing below.

2008-12-17T22:17:00.007+08:00

Holaa~ Hope everyone's been great:) 1 more month before B for Bloody school reopens, another week to Christmas; bright lights, certainly less presents, higher food consumption, and more (usually)unfulfilled resolutions(on my part, actually). Days are actually pretty routinal, taking it's usual course of the L Word(being to watch it on my own home screen without Any interruption totally rocks my boat), Movies, Shared Meals, Window Shopping, Aimless Walking, not forgetting my favourite Sleep-Ins, and the L Word. Hahaha, I'm almost broke, meaning it's time to draw my purse strings tightER before Mummy decides to cut my finances or something. Meanwhile, I'll just try to occupy myself with possibly more meaningful activities. I'm up for dates, ok?:)

Hongkong was fantastic, yes, like I always say, all thanks to my AAAAAstarAmazing bunch of friends. The weather was cold but the warmth back in the house seeps right into our toes, travels upwards and blankets our hearts. Yeah, I know it's damn cheesy but I like us this way~ The girls were lovable, the boys were crazy, Mickey gets annoying at times, my lips were peeling, my skin was dry(now there're rashes) but let me tell you, I'd willingly trade probably half a year of my lifespan for another 10days with everyone abroad again. I returned to Singapore with proclamations of love for all my friends, I'v never felt that life would be this good. Well, it's a monthly thing whereby my emotions flow this uncontrollably and words that roll off my tongue or I type actually borders on the edge of exaggeration, but it's okay cos' I mean them right down to every alphabet.

Long due: Some outing the team had + my beloved DongDong's birthday party. My friends are SO CUTEZXZXZXZX :D

Salutes to the Birthday Girl:)

This is how we love you.

Vice Cap loves you! <3

2008-12-04T22:39:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY, Love You plentyplenty:) XOXO!!

Haha, too many cameras, we don't know where to look.

Uncle Bernard's and my Family in their Beijing home.

It's my last night here in Beijing and all of a sudden, everything feels so much better. You know, how we always lament to the ends of the world about something, but at the end of it all, we can't help but ask for that little bit more time? Haha, no wait, I still want Very Much to fly back to Singapore, but when I'm with Darren and Demmi, the 3 of us can gossip and bullshit like we invented these activites. Darren schools in Singapore, so he'll fly back with us tomorrow. I'll have to wait till Chinese New Year before Demmi and her parents go back to visit, that's all. But yes, being in the house and fooling around with my cousins beats being exposed to the chilly winds outdoors, hands down bottoms up. 8)

COOKIE! He'd so enjoy an icecream cos I'v discovered how much he loves licking cold things Specifically, my freezing fingers and toes. He is sucha baby, I'd love to bring him home but nope, I'm waiting for my own pet(s)! :) plus he'll probably be smothered by Mom's hugs+my kisses = Our affection.

That aside, the 2Days-1Night trip to XiAn in between the entire Beijing trip was unbearable. Basically, I can't stand the cold, it kills me like how Daddy used to electrocute houseflies with this buzzing swatter. I don't really have much to say, but you can roughly make out how the negative temperature and bitter winds are getting past my 3layers of clothing to me. I was like, really grouchy the entire time.

Actually, see? you can't even see me. HAHAHA, my face is just like (-.-) anyway.

I'll be touching down in Singapore an hour or so before midnight, which means I'll be in time for ANTM!:D I figured I'm gonna be kinda busy over the weekends helping Mummy unpack, then packing for the HK trip. I think I'v got the sweetest bunch of friends who never fail to tell me how much they miss me and I'd so love to string them all up to wear around my neck. I know, I know, I was whining about how horrid it was to be far from home, but all in all, a holiday with your very own family is too precious to miss.

Greetings from Singapore:) I'm sure all my feline friends missed me.

2008-11-23T22:57:00.004+08:00

Stay out of trouble, stay in touch.
Try not to think about me too much.

So yes, I'm flying off to a country whereby it's native language is one which I'd prefer not to speak if given the opportunity - Beijing, China. Geez, help me. I'll be gone for TickleMeDeadPlease Ten(!!!) days, which equates to missing 2 training sessions, topped off with the fact that the temperature over there falls below freezing point; It being something absolutely unbearable because I detest going through the trouble of piling on and peeling off layers of clothes upon entering and leaving places. When I get back, however, I'll be ready for HongKong with my amazing team mates:) I can't wait!!!!! But in the meantime, China, Do spare me the Melamine along with your many other Chinese habits.

Wildchild yesterday, and following me in a separate plane shortly after today will be my BestF whom I won't be seeing in a Really long time. Photohunt was fun though, everything's pleasant, my troubles automatically vanish in their presence:)

Alright, I'll miss everyone, but I will be back!:) XOXO!

2008-11-21T22:26:00.003+08:00

Waking up to find another day
The moon got lost again last night,
But now the sun has finally had its say
I guess I feel alright.
But it hurts when I think
When I let it sink in
It's all over me,
I'm lying here in the dark
I'm watching you sleep, it hurts a lot
& all I know is .....

? i don't know, really.

2008-11-16T20:59:00.003+08:00

On the corner of main street
Just tryin' to keep it in line,
You say you wanna move on and
You say I'm falling behind.

It was nearing 7 when I woke up from my nap so the room was gradually darkening, anymore I wouldn't be able to see my own hands if held up in front of my face. For that brief moment it brought me back to how for 2 or 3 weeks before the bloody exams, I'd get jolted outta sleep around 8plus everyday, my head throbbing harder than before from the unrelenting reminder to mug,mug and mug. The feeling was damn sick. I hate the stupid college.

On a lighter note, I'm catching Madagascar tomorrow!:)

Handsome fella here looks alot like James, Where are you my baby boy?:(

2008-11-12T23:04:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday RedGrapes!:D
Haven't had sushi in ages but went Japanese today with Mimi and my Good Looking pair of friends.We polished clean 20 to 30 plates(which I doubt is alot actually), threw a paper towel's wrapper and 2 unwanted balls of dessert back onto the conveyor belt. Lunch was not too short and extremely sweet, I love my friends especially the one I'm gonna be blackmailing:)
The scorching sun roasted us like ducks on skewers today. Heat was sweltering yet Mother Nature was pretty generous with her share of breezes. I was tempted to play without my shirt like the guys but I'll probably get shot for doing so. Anyway, it being something which will hold true for as long as it continues, I shall re-re-re-emphasize the importance of regular training attendance and also, not forgetting, how much fun I have at every session.

Thank you Sexy Member!:)

I'm a stayhome kid tomorrow, Mummy ought to be glad.

2008-11-09T18:16:00.003+08:00

I'v blown quite abit at the arcade over the past week, but that's okay cos it's the company and joy derived from all the shooting, driving, along with whacking that counts. I'll probably go on a job hunt soon, and should be getting Mummy to help me out. When we return from our holiday, there'll maybe be 1(or hopefully,2?) new members to the family. That aside, I'm pretty excited about the trip to HK, not cos I haven't been there but due to the fact that I'v never been abroad with my friends before. My room's still a mess, my mind's disorganized and I just want to spend as much time with anybody and everybody if possible, especially those dear to me because as we all know, the holiday comes and goes in the blink of an eye.

I can hear my brother thrashing around in the pool.

And this is for my Best friend
(although I secretly grabbed it off someone's MSNspace),

2008-11-02T21:55:00.001+08:00

It’s getting darker but it’s the way they make me feel,
They try to fill my head with questions,
They all doubt you but I know you're real.

2008-10-26T00:14:00.000+08:00

是不是说没有做完的梦最痛?

2008-10-19T18:43:00.008+08:00

Through the breeze, through the trees
Move so pretty You're all I see,
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me Right Here Right Now.

Woke up this morning to see my armoured dinosaurs gobbling down a healthy breakfast.

Cookie Monster: " AhSHbEHHeEDBeEKiiNgHE PpfFTPPPFTppERR!!! "
Elmo: " Zzzzzzz.... "
Hahahaha, okay I don't know why but that just cracked me up so I had to snap a picture. How come NYDC always has huge soft toys in their restaurants?

Cool huh? I simply Love the Red one, but I wanted Purple, it being my favourite colour. Green kinda stood out among the rest too, for me that is. Anyway, since I placed my order over the phone with Mummy, it apparently didn't get across quite well cos' she told me the sales person said there wasn't Red(when there was), Purple wasn't ordered into the shop(why not?!), so yes, I settled for Green. It isn't bad actually :) I mean, any Ipod capable of playing my songs beats a spoilt one.

PW on Saturday was cancelled, couldn't meet Trico either cos' he was at soccer so, I lunched with Francis & Wenyong instead.Francis was funnier than I already thought he was, especially the way he talks and says certain things. Later Mr Saturday brought me to the PetFarm at Pasir Ris and I tried to get my hands on as many dogs as possible. They were incredibly cute and I fell in love with most of the Dacshunds, let a bulldog puppy slobber all over my hand, pointed my Handgun at a parrot screeching at me, and played with many more puppies. I didn't bring my camera since the trip was impromptu, plus photography was prohibited cos Some fella said so right after this picture was taken.
Incredibly, prettily, adorable to the Maximum! :)
No cats though, only 2 kittens sleeping in a cage but they were too happily frolicking around in Dreamland to realise I want their attention.

Friday was like any other normal day, mundane and boring. Having only 50mins instead of 2Hours of Chemistry however, was an Instant mood-lifter. Spent the evening laughing away at Best's place, I probably Was high on some imaginary unknown gas which causes Drowsiness 8D Okay, Whatever.
" You mean Mattresses have SPRINGS? "
" No, Only Spring Onions. "

ya ya, the Consoling Hand's on me!

Sucker for you.

School tomorrow D:

2008-10-15T22:20:00.009+08:00

And every night I miss you, I can't just look up
And know the stars are holding you,
Holding you, holding you Tonight.

First things first, HAPPY BIRTHDAY LLOYD!! :-D
Alright this's kinda the only picture we have, Way back during PAE. tell me about it! I doubt you could really enjoy today since the dumbAss A's are coming up, but we all know it'll be over very soon. Work your magic ruler and chicken wings, Happy 18th! :)

It's been awhile Best & I went berserk and laughed our heads off over the simplest things. Today we went on a field trip just right behind Shona Primary School, it was really brief but fun, nevertheless! We got ourselves on this huge patch of grass with small elevated platforms resembling tiny stools here and there. We had to sketch the various erosional landforms around us and found the neat little clusters of tiny ferns sprouting out all over looking like miniature rainforests. It started drizzling so the both of us started screaming and gee, was it cool! Best gave her super high-pitched shriek/scream and there was a pause of at least 1, 2, 3 seconds before the echo returned. I don't know why but it cracked us up till no end and everybody'd be staring at us cos they don't get the joke. Well that's perfectly alright too, that's what makes our world a brighter and cheerier place :)

This was from eons ago but I'm glad you are still here with me. It's a rough period now, the storm is brewing, the waves are choppy but I'll remain here onboard with You. Love you Best :)

ALINAAAA Thumbelina! *salutes! You've been an awesome, sexy member. Thanks for rubbing the horrible horrible bruise for me. See, now you've left your mark, your love,care and tons of concern on my thumb. I'm sure it'll get better tomorrow:)

Take care of yourself, okay? :)

Thank you too, XingXing :) Copy the Bio answers faster next time!

The day ended with Chinese Mock in the freezing hall. I was nodding off with every passing minute and eventually succumbed to the comfort of my jacket which served me well as a Super thin pillow. I ended up writing tons of crap in the boxes, like 大哥哥,花园, which were completely, Absolutely Irrelevant to the composition requirements. The handwriting on the first page was atrocious, the chinese characters reduced from normal sized ones, to those as squiggly as the paths of busy busy ants. But by Paper 2 I was pretty awake, anxious to leave, and communicating via funny noises with Best already.

Am I going overboard again? Do I usually? Am I too demanding, always asking for more than what I deserve? Do I always come across as quick-tempered, explosive and ready to flare up over the slightest things? Am I forever setting expectations too high to be reached then pushing the blame onto what falls together with my hopes? Do I confuse, hurt, anger more than I try to understand, touch, and listen?

Can you feel?

2008-10-14T21:57:00.003+08:00

Looks like I'v to source for a sharper tipped object to pick out the knots in my fingers. I hold my breath with every paper given back, whether it's mine, yours, his or hers, then my heart either sinks faster than an anchor hurled into the sea or is lifted higher than any eagle can soar. Whichever way, it sucks when you're holding on so tightly to something this precious without knowing when's the next moment you're gonna lose it, Just like that.

This amuses me, don't you feel the same way too?

Are you not facing up to something new?

2008-10-12T16:26:00.006+08:00

Are you calling me Darling?

Happy Birthday Momsie :) I Love You!

Last Tuesday marked the end of Promos and boy, was i relieved! Dived straight for HouseBunny and cracked up in the theatre, well, partially also because I'v a portable Humour System beside me:) Training on Wednesday and it was as usual, Capital F for Fabulous! The rain prohibited court activity while Gym with the guys was pretty hilarious. Volleyball ensued and I'v earned myself some bruises but fret not, it was fun:) Interhouse and one sleep-inducing talk after another finished up the rest of the week.

Chem results were expected, counting on the known fact that I didn't study along with All the times my attention span flew at high speed out of the window upon the sight of cathodes,anodes and what nots. GP, Math and Bio's lined up in my timetable for tomorrow so I'm braced for the papers about to be thrown my way. What remained so excruciating throughout the Post-exam week was the Wait, I just hope that what I'v been anticipating doesn't kill me.

Are you calling me Bird?

2008-09-28T12:28:00.001+08:00

Must.Clear.(f-ing)Promos.

2008-09-10T20:46:00.007+08:00

I've been tryin' to think for weeks of all the ways to ask you,
And now I've brought you to the place,
Where I've Poured my heart out
A million times for a million Reasons,
To offer it to you.

Didn't think that days could actually get worse than the ones I'm waking up to over and over again. It's been a Really long time since I'm so caught up in a mess, or much less feel like one myself. 20 More days, 20 Less Days, either way I look at it, it's just Really Really Bad.

SheePig in UpperRrR's class.

See I found this magnificent art of nature but it was DEAD. No one believed me and thought I was walking around with a decorative ornament. Well, actually I wouldn't blame them cos' the colours on the bird are really bright and pretty.

On the way to it's burial ground in my PaperBox.

I brought it outta school cos' in a drain along the corridors didn't seem like the best place to Rest In Peace. So I Left it in the paperbox behind a bush along the bustop opposite the college. However, when I returned today to check up on any signs of decomposition, the Bird was GONE. what's left was just the paperbox with a Gaping Hole at the bottom :/ A rat probably took off with the bird at night. See, that's how our Food Web develops into a Food Chain so I Hope a snake swallows up that glutton of a rat next.

Study Hard for your Prelims Boo :)

Best Thanks for always making me laugh and shriek my head off in public. I hope you know that you really mean so much to me.

Camwhoring Dog!!!

Where would I be?

2008-08-20T23:08:00.004+08:00

Isn't that the point?

2008-08-20T23:08:00.000+08:00

2008-08-05T22:12:00.003+08:00

A lovestruck Romeo, sings the streets of serenade
Laying everybody low with a love song that he made.
Find a streetlight, steps out of the shade
Says something like, "You and me, babe, how about it?"

Juliet says, "Hey, it's Romeo, you nearly gave me a heart attack"
He's underneath the window, she's singing
"Hey, la, my boyfriend's back",
You shouldn't come around here, singing up at people like that
Anyway what you gonna do about it?

Juliet, the dice was loaded from the start
And I bet and you exploded in my heart,
And I forget, I forget the movie song
When you gonna realize, it was just that the time was wrong, Juliet?

Come up on different streets, they both were streets of shame
Both dirty, both mean, Yes and the dream was just the same,
And I dream your dream for you and now your dream is real
How can you look at me, as if I was just another one of your deals?

Well, you can fall for chains of silver, you can fall for chains of gold
You can fall for pretty strangers and the promises they hold,
You promised me everything, you promised me thick and thin
Now you just say, "Oh, Romeo, yeah, you know
I used to have a scene with him".

Juliet, when we made love, you used to cry
You said, "I love you like the stars above, I love you till I die".
There's a place for us, you know the movie song
When you gonna realize, it was just that the time was wrong, Juliet?

I can't do the talk like the talk on the TV
And I can't do a love song like the way it's meant to be,
I can't do everything but I'd do anything for you
Can't do anything except be in love with you.

And all I do is miss you and the way we used to be
All I do is keep the beat, the bad company,
And all I do is kiss you, through the bars of a rhyme
Juliet, I'd do the stars with You any time.

2008-08-04T22:21:00.001+08:00

Here's a HUGE Thank You to all those who wished me:D Well, of course the 6 posters around school did contribute to the number, if not I believe most probably wouldn't know. Anyhow, Thanks Everyone!! You definitely made a difference!:D

Best's present! As usual, it goes way past the conventional Rude Finger(: Thanks for being part of my everyday life, going through and roughing it out that Routinal shit in school and Our very friendship makes an Awesome Birthday Gift already! :D
To Shona $ Jolene, Thanks for the wishes:) Days wouldn't feel right without you both around!Hope we have more fun coming our way!

Birthday Breakfast (3

AnetTtTtT! I can't thank you enough for everything!!! This, as we both know isn't even the end and if I were to string up my overwhelming appreciation, I still doubt it'd be sufficient to tie up all your presents and effort put into making my birthday such a Special and 'Famous' One! Thank YOUUUU! :D

LLoyd! My mom looked at your box and commented that the boy who gave it to me must be a RRREEAAALLLLYYY Thoughtful fellow to have done everything up so nicely!(: Your card was pretty sleazy with the flashes of skimpy Underwear but heyyy, I know what you're like! Ha, thanks for the treat as well! Ill-treat me and I'll whack you with your present!:D

And also Very Importantly, To my Dear Girls who are the sweetest ever, to have autographed me with the mascot of our Wednesdays with Miss Chua. All of you form the whackiest bunch(Alina, you deserved to be whacked), and apart from playing basketball itself, there's each and everyone of you that makes training such a Joy for me to always look forward to!:D XXXXXXX

UppeRrRrR!

Lol. Puberty struck.

2008-07-20T09:57:00.009+08:00

We'll keep driving doesn't matter where
Cos' we got that open highway leading our way,
As long as You are there
We can go anywhere. 19

I used to hog the com everytime after school cos' my idea of fun was derived from glueing my eyes onto the screen with my fingers flying from letter to letter while chatting with anyone and everyone, maybe posting a redundant entry, or when it all fails to interest me, entering Gunbound with my faithful Asate to shoot at a few thousand other users who maybe, also can't think up of anything more mindless to indulge in. Now, school's become so draining All I used to deem fun no longer hold true to that description, much less pique my curiousity.

It's a routinal: Monday- Long & Draggy, Tuesday- Chinese to sleep/laugh away,watch Boss draw & UpppErR, Wednesday- Geog isn't too bad at times & Training helps me get through the sleepy afternoons, Thursday- An even LONGER day of more micropipetting & maybe more laughs with Best, Friday- UpperR's turnoff practicals, anticipated Training & finally, A Breakaway.
But of course, it's (only)a 2 Days Weekend. Zzzzzzzzzzz

<3

Our botched pet dinosaur during Chinese.

10th: HAPPY BIRTHDAY WOMW :D

Terence getting his hair shaved for the Hair For Hope event. Even like a little monk, still suave, still handsome!

haha, so cute!!

Boss's fly.

Boss's art.

I have the best Burger Friends :D

2008-07-03T22:03:00.003+08:00

Today is a winding road that's taking me to places that I didn't want to go
Today in the blink of an eye I'm holding on to something and I do not know why
I tried,

I tried to read between the lines
I tried to look in your eyes,
I want a simple explanation
For what I'm feeling inside,
I gotta find a way out
Maybe there's a way out.

Today is a winding road, tell me where to start and tell me something I don't know
Today I'm on my own, I can't move a muscle and I can't pick up the phone
I don't know, I don't know .....

And now I'm itching for the tall grass
And longing for the breeze,
I need to step outside
Just to see if I can breathe,
I gotta find a way out
Maybe there's a way out.

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors,
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder.

Yeah I'm walking on a tightrope
I'm wrapped up in vines
I think we'll make it out,
But you just gotta give me time
Strike me down with lightning,
Let me feel you in my veins
I wanna let you know how much I feel your pain.

And I said,
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder,
So bring on the rain
Oh baby bring on the pain
And listen to the thunder.

2008-06-20T22:30:00.018+08:00

Devils and angels on this old street
Now they got the same secrets as you and me
So let's open our doors, let's open our doors for the world to see.

The last day of holidays ended on a pretty good note, and I can't be more thankful for the friends I had around me to complete my everydays over the few weeks, or should I say, the past 5 months. I'v become lazy to blog, lazier to study, always ready to sleep. I still jump upon questions spiralling in my mind, just that most of the time, I can't come up with an answer that will fit perfectly.

Haha! Spot the Froggie!!

Zoeyyyy.

Heh4.

Shona " Woah, very nice leh!!! "

lol.

Ah, so ke ai :)

<3

2008-06-16T22:28:00.004+08:00

Like the light was all I had, I struck the book with my last match.

BBQ with (actually, probably less than half of) S2 relived times which will never leave my mind and brought back memories that my heart shall never step away from. It was more or less, the same bunch of us accompanied with the usual, endless screamfest, outbursts and poking fun at one another, but these were exactly what made the entire night count. And here's to many more such years of friendship to come.

Sherwinnnn :) Ass Buddy!

Lisa & Germaine

Sneha

Ashma Santhiya Liyana YT

Aishah :)

Gettin' a little whacked and a few nuts loose by now.

Ok, HAHAH.

4s2 06/07 <3

A few pictures from Camp. I still will chase the GUEHHH if I were to see it waddling about with it's fluffy fat ass. Diarrhoea and the swarms of flies aside, I really miss the freedom that comes with such an escape from the stale air of life we'll be breathing till Promo's are over :/

cO1 O2

11B

" Eh look so cool! "

2008-06-11T23:05:00.016+08:00

In this same bar where you slammed down your hand,

Mom's back from her holiday so my days of liberty have officially abandoned me. Never mind though, it's about time i Touch my homework :/ Shit.

For my BestFriend :)

Put your smile right back where it belongs!

Training's never felt this good since the last time we had it. I am anticipating next Wednesday's and keeping my fingers crossed for the much desired, almighty Sun. A day well spent, wouldn't trade it for anything else. Thank you! :)

HAHA.

The joy of drinking from (my) waterbottle.

You ought to be taught manners!!!

-

Trudged down t the Orphanage for COP on Tuesday. The kids were a boisterous bunch and wasted no time in the terrorism of the class, which included a series of hair pulling, fingers twisting, handphone ssnatching("to listen to song!!!") and a few piggybacks. But nope, there were none I wanted t take home with me cos I don't work well with them, not in the long-run, at least.

Beckham! Cutest of the lot :)

Yagesh :)

Literally digging into his self-decorated cupcake.

Cute.

Glenn lookalike, Alvin. Thanks for twisting my fingers and dropping your "glittery" cupcake on me. But you were admittedly one of my favourites, ok?

Who can forget WeiHao?

2008-06-04T22:53:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 17th, Evil Eyes Melvin my Boss :)

2008-06-02T20:24:00.003+08:00

How many minutes until midnight and you get your eyesight back?

PW meeting today was pretty much a joy, save for the gruesome videos on the skinning of animals viewed earlier in the morning. I'm as lazy as I'v ever been since stepping onto our sweet, turd-free Singapore soil last Friday upon return from Camp. Mom's going overseas, and I'm keeping my fingers crossed for a fabulous week ahead.

<3_<3

Polar with my Sniffy :)

2008-05-11T12:16:00.008+08:00

It seems all of these words couldn't be further from the truth,
How did I get here, what did I do?

I think this can mark the first count towards my list of achievements in school, I finally did something I'm pretty proud of!

Munch Crunch Brunch!

They are super adorable! Did I tell you? They abhor peas, just like me. They will pick out the revolting little green balls and eat only the carrots and corns like the mixed vegetables we have in our fried rice. Alright, I know I'm not supposed to be here and the blanks I'm leaving for the structured Chem Bonding are taunting me mercilessly. One more week and I guess I'll be free.

Put down your world
Just for one night,
Pick me again.

2008-05-09T20:48:00.008+08:00

Waiting for your call
I'm sick, call I'm angry
Call I'm desperate for your voice,
Listening To The Song We Used To Sing
In the car do you remember
Butterfly early summer it's playing on repeat
Just like when we would meet,
Like when We would meet.

I'm certain the few of us at times opt to turn to the track for neither the upkeep of our physical fitness nor as a precondition of a strict exercise regime. Be it the numerous, aimless rounds, or the continuous sprints after sprints to the point where our lungs are thrown onto the verge of bursting and legs just one step from giving way, the intent to exhaust ourselves in hopes of supressing any surge of emotions, or expelling whatever's devouring us up inside, is unsubtle yet temporary. In the midst of all that's taking place right now, it feels like I'm teetering on a tightrope and I'v been very tempted to jump.

I clocked 2.4 within an unsatisfactory timing, despite being first. Keeping pace with Stef didn't require too much effort, but when I couldn't find myself anything to run for, to run towards, she caught up. Best's cheers plus a slap on my hand with every dash past her from each round I completed offered boosts though, and I'm extremely thankful for her presence :) Well, I sprinted to the finishing mark eventually and perspired enough to leave an ant struggling to walk out of a drop of sweat that dripped off my chin.

Sentiments can compel one into accomplishing many things that were once thought impossible, but can, at the same time also result in the erosion of strength and faith within. Should rejoicing over new formed friendships and blossoming romances Or wallowing in misery due to a series of U grades and perhaps a certain loss over something important, someone dear, become our heart's prerogative, we can decide whether to take advantage of either emotion by allowing it to build us up, or to have it sink in and permit ourselves to fall behind.

But at the end of the day, we are all just looking for an escape.

Supposed to be me as well :/

A tit for a tat, an eye for an eye! THIS IS YOU! whahaha!

That was a lengthy entry, but I appreciate all those who didn't merely skim through but shared my thoughts with me. Goodnight.

Stay with me tonight.

2008-05-07T18:25:00.008+08:00

And the movie's long over,
that's three that've passed, One more's fine.

An early arrival home today only signifies more slack time for the sloth in me. I guess within my indolent mind, procrastination never dies but will instead thrive on the legion of distractions surrounding me, feeding voraciously on the time that trickles away as I take joy in these unnecessary forms of leisure. And when I finally tame this disgusting beast and triumph in summoning my ass to plaster itself onto the chair, my eyelids become heavy, my brain wills my legs towards the bed and viola! I hit the sack in no time.
Then again, comfort never fails to remain transient.

-

Yesterday, I ran.

After which I proceeded on to search. I looked intently, I sought hard with every breath, with each heartbeat, with all of myself. But my search eventually gave in to an unavailing attempt for as the seconds ticked by, realization that I wouldn't find what I was seeking hit me square in the face, leaving me to wonder if I had just been looking at nothing the whole time.

Then, I continued to run.

click if it's unclear. Who gives better answers other than ...

Study hard, goodnight.

Will you stay awake for me?

2008-05-05T20:31:00.003+08:00

maybe cos I know you'll always be with me,
In the possibility.

Hoots of joy and peals of laughter rang out the very instant rain fell and spared us of the morning's humid, windless air. But is it only when the world is thrown into Extremely dire straits that mankind actually does something concrete consistently in order to save not just themselves, but what has been their globe of support over the thousands of years?

Best's Bio-friendly representation of a part of the male anatomy- scrotum, testes, vas deferens, all rolled into a sleepy,wrinkly elephant.

Winning TicTacToe the Loser way.

Which way do I turn?

2008-05-03T21:37:00.002+08:00

I realised that when I linger too long on this page, the grins of the numerous devilish looking, tv-shaped creatures actually begin to give me the creeps.

If only Chem SPA was as relaxing as soaking in a tub of warm water with pressure jets aimed at all the right places ...... but instead everyone had to endure the suffocating blanket of heat weighing down on our heads(how do we work our minds better this way?), trapped within the thick school uniform. I think, if we were all stuffed turkeys, there'd be enough to go around for at least 5 Thanksgivings.

Summer Tests are up in 3 weeks, and boy, am I excited. School will, for as long as I pursue my studies and strive for academic excellence, be a playground of never-ending knowledge for me. But should my sarcasm and perceived over-enthusiasm be translated into hardcore motivation and discipline, I'd be passing all 6 scripts with flying colours, stepping out of college next year to collect my certificates of straight A's in 2010.

Yayyay, Saturday nights are Guess nights. sleep tight! :)

2008-04-03T21:45:00.000+08:00

Love sick and we're sick of it,
We're both on the same page, don't feel the same way.

My absence for the past 1 week or so just proves how little spare time i have on my hands to come online. I'm sleepy upon reaching school, i succumb to the ever alluring temptation of the pillow the moment i step into my room.PW has kickstarted itself 2 weeks ago and it sucks bigbigbig time. I don't see much of a reason in keeping this blog up but the sloth in me is lazy to delete it anyway, haha. I'v been flailing my arms wildly for the past few days, trying to keep my head up amidst currents after currents of Chem Math Chem Math Chem Math .... I'm super close to drowning. I need tuition, very very badly. The only thing I look forward to every week is training but once it's over, everything settles and i'm still stuck in the same shit. I only wanna be in IJC for 2 years, not 3. I miss Crescent.

It's very tiring.

2008-03-24T20:55:00.000+08:00

Asleep at the wheel, no windshield,
But you know that the streets
Here don't change.

One of the joys I looked forward to every recess, lunch and dismissal during PAE, which also happened to be the same reason for my unhappiness upon leaving it behind after getting the posting results to St Andrews, which coincidentally was as well what I couldn't wait to return to after the successful appeal back into IJ, has very almost ceased to exist. What's not disheartening about this?

Will :o suffice in summing up my mood today? Lethargy, apparently, has decided to make my body home sweet home after I got the BEST sleep last night, really. Guess neither studying nor revision has a place in my mind tonight. That sends me off to dream about my suck^^^^ Bio test grades.